final week

Good luck siewjuen

you know you can do this

just strive for 2 more weeks

next wed after 10 you gonna be freed

It has been a tough time for you

You knew that u have tried your very best

and you did well during those times

despite off adding more weight

you are still the same ;)

don't feel bad for those weight stuffs

you know those story behind

those experience worth more than this ;)

hmmmM

thou shan't allow pride engulf thee

i finally understand that ;)

sunday without much sun

LOL

today manage to get my ass out my apartment and walk for about 2 hours outside

for your information

the weather now is approximately negative 13 Celsius

of course my hands and legs are numb

but in fact, it is not that bad YET

looking for houses

feel that the house i m staying is too expensive for me

although i do have really good housemates

ARGHHH, i don't know how to tell them that I am moving out soon

T_T

because i over heard one of my housemate saying something last week

i feel like, unconsciously, I am already so integrated with all of them

they are so nice that makes me feels like I am at home

two more weeks to final

and after this i gonna be in california for two  plus weeks

the feeling is so weird though

I felt like I have changed a lot since I am here

particularly this week

just kinda surprise....

and everyone was asking me why I am so happy this week

Maybe because of my calculus results

or perhaps, i just figure out the best way to be happy

next week only one quiz for calculus, which basically i don't have big prob on that

i had a really good weekend.

have sufficient rests and entertainment with my girls ;)

they are so nice and i love them so much

mwahhh

chat alot with mum and lui this week

she tried to update me everything in penang

and makes me feel like, i m still that near ;)

gonna work hard for final

i know i will

add oil everyone in U of M

and also everyone who is going to take their tests

ALSO

specially for ric, hiao hao and friends who are taking ACCA

good luck ;)

this feeling is so weird

somehow get distracted

yet makes me energetic

surprisingly I don't feel bad or miserable about that

i feel courage

it is really hard to describe by words about this feeling

and i made it

hahah, 

crazily in ♥?

perhaps

thanks for the morning calls, nap calls, good night calls

short but "powerful" ;)

you're the one who makes me feel, it's really worth doing so

i will work hard, and so do you

let's get courage!!!!!

young people like us should work harder

you knew it lazy ass! 

miss you

no fancy words neither fancy wordings

just like the way we are

specially dedicate to you

♥

gotta work my ass off for my quiz tomorrow and friday

ushhhhhhh!!!!!

3 more weeks!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

random thoughts

Accidentally go through my mail box and check my itinerary for my trip to LA

found a folder which kept a lot mails 

private emails 

finally I opened it and read it

and yes

I am OVER it ;)

I was so afraid that I told victor last week

I might be doing silly stuffs again this time

he asks me to overcome that idiot feeling and control my mind and behavior

and today

accidentally and unintentionally 

i face it and solve it

i guess this feeling is really different

maybe, 

I never thought that we could come to this point

and I never thought of everything will happen in this way

Things get to unpredictable after that turning point

At least, i get to take another path which I wanted to take 

It might not turn out the good way

but I tried the alternate way

no big deal if I fail, cause you won't get to win all the way along your life

so fail when you're young and get your ass up and MOVE ON

learn from mistakes and lessons

experience is the best teacher

listen to others and think

You don't have to take it all

but at least absorb and try to digest

if it is not appropriate 

PUKE IT OUT!

mum told me, 

sometimes people are just not over with jealousy

so, don't treat everyone as good samaritan

but don't be prejudice!

hard isn't?

life is how you balance everything and not to be extreme

being extreme is just killing yourself

no doubt

I am kinda extremist

I am learning

LEARN AND LEARN AND LEARN

bdw, he sent me a very meaningful message this morning

which really makes me contemplate and think about what I am having now

in his message

he just congrats me

cause i have get through the tough time

*100th days in US*

*he is dang thoughtful and remember this;)*

transformation of being dependent to independent 

and i can manage my life now by myself

maybe this is what I am looking for ;)

happy thanksgiving

Thanksgiving should be a grateful celebration with family

Although I am thousands miles away from my home

I will still appreciate and always be grateful for what I have now

I will work my ass off on this 4 days holidays to catch up with my studies to show my gratitude to my parents ;)

♥

hella' mind

since when

i lost my verbal ability to express my thoughts?

all cramping inside my mind

 but sometimes I rather cramp them inside 

if you want me to share with those that don't understand

haih

wasting of time

i m suppose to write about the hella' feelings in my mind now

but I am stuck again

some conversations just strike on spontaneously and I noticed

I gained and I lose

more towards lose or gain?

let's see!